August is around the corner.....

WEll, it is  almost August.... Surprisingly enough this month comes bitter sweet to me. Why?  Well, the sweet is that in 21 days I get to see Phil again.  He has been away in Kansas working all summer.  And I have missed him greatly!  The other part of sweet is Amanda is finally going to college, of which she has been looking forward to for so long, finally moving forward to seeing her future more clearly.  For this I am so very excited for her.  The bitter is. in 21 days, Bill and I take her to college!  I can't even describe how much I will miss her being home.  For one, since Phil has been away to college, she has become my friend.  Since her best friend moved, I have become her friend.  So we have brought comfort to each other in many ways that one, we shop together, we watch shows on BravoTV together, we go take pictures together, we do scrapbooking together, we get our pedicures done and our hair done together.....there is so much.  And so much I will truely miss doing with her.  Her absence will be deeply missed around our house.  Her funny sense of humor, like tonight at dinner and she was just laughing about nothing.  I love that.  I will still go get coffee, but will miss her going too.  There is just new pathways starting in our family.  Some new ones, some redirecting, some are re-connecting.  But really it is a new phase for many of us in the antilla household.  So this is some of the sweet part, starting some things new, picking up and working on things I have put off doing for so long, and really re creating a new schedule for my life and the life I now have with my family.  So August in a way is a new August for me, one I have never had before.  But I will be brave, and keep my chin up, even though I feel like crying most every day when I think about how much I will miss my kids.  

I will write again soon, ( I need to remember my password more) anyway, not sure who reads this, or if Iam just writing my thoughts down for me.  oh-well, either way it is good therapy!