August is around the corner.....

WEll, it is  almost August.... Surprisingly enough this month comes bitter sweet to me. Why?  Well, the sweet is that in 21 days I get to see Phil again.  He has been away in Kansas working all summer.  And I have missed him greatly!  The other part of sweet is Amanda is finally going to college, of which she has been looking forward to for so long, finally moving forward to seeing her future more clearly.  For this I am so very excited for her.  The bitter is. in 21 days, Bill and I take her to college!  I can't even describe how much I will miss her being home.  For one, since Phil has been away to college, she has become my friend.  Since her best friend moved, I have become her friend.  So we have brought comfort to each other in many ways that one, we shop together, we watch shows on BravoTV together, we go take pictures together, we do scrapbooking together, we get our pedicures done and our hair done together.....there is so much.  And so much I will truely miss doing with her.  Her absence will be deeply missed around our house.  Her funny sense of humor, like tonight at dinner and she was just laughing about nothing.  I love that.  I will still go get coffee, but will miss her going too.  There is just new pathways starting in our family.  Some new ones, some redirecting, some are re-connecting.  But really it is a new phase for many of us in the antilla household.  So this is some of the sweet part, starting some things new, picking up and working on things I have put off doing for so long, and really re creating a new schedule for my life and the life I now have with my family.  So August in a way is a new August for me, one I have never had before.  But I will be brave, and keep my chin up, even though I feel like crying most every day when I think about how much I will miss my kids.  

I will write again soon, ( I need to remember my password more) anyway, not sure who reads this, or if Iam just writing my thoughts down for me.  oh-well, either way it is good therapy!  

it has been too long since I was here.......

Today I reading my son's blog (Phil Antilla is Thinking) and he reminded me of a summer time fun that i had forgotten.

  Fire Flys!

  They are amazing little flying flashlights. (As he refered to them)  I didn't have them in Idaho when I was growing up on our farm....( we had other fun things to keep us busy) 

but our kids had them growing up in Georgia.  I think they are mostly found from the middle to the South and eastern part of the United States.  I am thankful I have experienced these little flying delights, even some may think they are a bit pesky, they are really amazing.  So if you are reading this, and I am not sure how many actually do, and if you are ever on that part of the USA in the summer...look for them, but have a jar handy, they are pretty fun to catch and watch glow in the dark!

Now.... Back to blogging my thoughts. 

I think I will start blogging more often, but right now it seems difficult to make the time to blog.  

I am starting to read a new book, it is called "The Beautiful Fight" by Gary Thomas. Basically it is about how we need to surrender to the Transforming presence of God Daily in our lives.  So Iam very excited to read this and see what God has for me to learn.  I am also reading Strong Women, Soft Hearts by Paula Rinehart.  It is a amazing book.  Very helpful for me in many areas.   Then I will be starting a book that I have had for a while but haven't taken the time to read is Katie Brazelton's book Called "Pathway to Purpose for Women"

I think reading is important, and it keeps me thinking and wanting to grow and better my self.  I have changes coming up next month.  Changes I knew would be coming for some time but haven't really wanted to think about it.  But Bill and I will be come Empty Nesters.  Not officially we still have two un-married children, but they are both now in college.  So even though we don't have our children living at home 365 days of the year, they are still "at home"

So I will relish in the idea for the time I have left to enjoy their presence in our home!

Well, that is all for now....

Enjoy reading! 

I will try to be back a little sooner next time to share with you some Thoughts from ME!